I Found my Battery

Okay, I write this blog so it's appropriate to write about accomplishments of mine,without thinking I sound pretentious, right?

I'm not a half-assed commitment type of person anymore.

Things in my life have changed.

I have unlocked something that I never want to go away.

I have unlocked a source of willpower that has already enabled me to do so much.

I have taken this willpower and created a New Years Resolution List. This is not some sissy "I'm really gonna do it" promise.

This is an early bucket list.

This is a list of items I have wanted to do for sometime and have been too consumed with distracting myself with daily life to complete.

I am happy to announce I have already completed some items. Just last night I completed another item.

I ran five miles yesterday, nonstop, in 40 minutes. I was a little dehydrated before and during, so when I stopped my face was hot and dry and my eyes were bloodshot.

In the mirror I appeared 20 years older. It was scary, but just a natural effect of not hydrating enough.

This milestone unlocks the next set of items; the 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, and finally the mini-marathon 13 mile run.

Dark clouds are clearing and each item brings me closer to realizing a dormant potential that nearly broke under depression, frustration, and hopelessness.
Yesterday, I was alive.

Today, I am alive.

My life expectancy is increasing with each day.